the one

For me,blog is a place where I can spend quality time to know more about myself.How?simple.Only while writing I can understand what i am, as this makes me think in different,incoherent,lateral,inconcurrent as many ways as I can,which I seldom do.This space is more about expressing myself.

October 19, 2008

That was the beginning of a long journey. So, after all this hullaballoo, a sudden question popped up in my mind. What is she doing in this office at such a time, all alone. I asked her the same. " I have one very important presentation to make for a client meeting tomorrow. So just making some last minute changes to the slides", replied Hasini. Oh,so what is she? which project is she....i was ready with my next set of questions,that are ready to gush out of my mouth. But you know how sharp and smart she is. She read through my mind and instantly began talking about here project. Surprisingly she's been working in the same floor...since last 6 months. I have many friends in the project she is working. But wait. Why did not any of them tell me about this girl. haa..neither would I have. And everybody knows why. Our conversation started there, then went on discussing about our common friends,to our surprise, they turned to be quite many. We talked about our schooling and then graduation.
Now this is something that is really out of blue. She just said she saw me in her college once,during one of the college functions. Did she? I donno. But how did I miss landing my eyes on somebody who is filled with so much grace and beauty. Now I made sure that I am a idiot. Never mind. But today here she is, with me, just at the right time. It was 3'0 Clock already and the rain god has no idea of taking rest for today. I was really hungry and did not want to loose even a fraction of second to spend with her. How do I tell her that I am hungry. haa...there she goes. "Did you have your lunch?", she asked me with a angel smile. What a fine gal she is. She reads through my mind so well. Unbelievable. Now , the question is where should we go to eat. On a normal weekend i would prefer to go to my regular place - Subway. Oh my....very few gals would actually like to go to a place like subway. Anyway i gave her the chance to pick the place. But she just thought that i should select the place. But how....i was trying hard to fix my thoughts on something other than subway.
There she goes again. I do not know if she just does it deliberately or with some great physic sense or some thing..i do not know.But she just gets it.Just out of blue. Okay we finally landed up at subway. She started the conversation. We spoke all sorts of things and i could not believe we became so close in such a short span. I wanted to ask something that every boy likes to ask a beautiful gal, If she has a boy friend. There I go. I gripped my eyes tight and took a deep breadth. "What is your boy friend name?", I asked her. I thought she would be taken by surprise and i was really scared to talk to her. Funniest thing is, i was the one who is taken by surprise.She took it very simple and did not give direct answer. I was praying the heavens to hear something good from her. But she did say that she has a very close childhood friend who studied and now working in Sydney,Australia. It is been 6 years since he stayed there. In all the things that we spoke that day, there was literally no issue where that guy was not brought into.We finished eating and started walking back to the office. We did not speak much on our way. I do not know what she was thinking but I know what I was thinking.
We both departed our ways. I planned to work but I know what I was thinking and what i was doing(I was not doing anything). I could not concentrate on my work. I was thinking what she was doing. In such a short span. What the hell is wrong with me. She must be deep in her work. Why on earth am I wasting my time. She happened to come to my place. What's the plan for the dinner. What..?? I did not get you.Can you come again?She asked me what's the plan for the dinner. I said, no special plans. Why do not we go out for dinner. What is she doing. I am already stuck with her thoughts. Am I helping myself or screwing myself. I donno. But ya, this time it is not subway. We went out for dinner to a place close to her the place where she stays.
The game is all again the same. She started with her child hood friends stories and went on and on. I was just a spectator there. I asked, unable to resist my hard feeling. Do you love him? She immediately left the table and started walking towards the exit and left without even looking back. I felt very embarrassed in front of all. I paid the bill and left the place thinking what she must have thought about me.
Next day I saw her in the office cafeteria. I thought our meeting was a short trip that had a unfortunate end at the hotel. But to my surprise, she was waving her hand saying Hi. I reciprocated. She came to me and said sorry. Come on. I am the guy who made the mistake and she is the one who is saying sorry.Can somebody tell me what's happening here. She said, that she can explain for what she did the other day. I was not interested to know. Here she goes. I had the shock of my life. She felt bad that she did not meet me just 1 week before the day she met me. I asked her, what is she trying to tell me. She said she is already engaged to the guy, yes the same guy whom she always talks about.What more can any girl say. holly...s***. What on earth am i hearing. Whatever, I am not the lucky guy.No, not this time too.